Saturday, March 31, 2007
by nxt sunday. if i m sitll stuck @ diz bloody ting. i m goin to quit my job. to cut off all connections. if diz means i m runnin away den fine i m runnin away. coz i juz wan to b da happier mi. 3 days of off day pls let mi recover.

i dun care if u r still readin my blog. i dun care dat i shldnt reveal my weak side or wateva hell.

tired of being sad.
tired of feelin da pain.
tired of fakin happiness in front of pple.

i wan to move on.
bt i noe half of mi dun wan to.

bt i noe wat i wan.
i wan to b happy.

sry pple bt den let mi nag if i happen to. let mi cry if i happen to. let mi whine if i happen to. let mi look sad if i happen to.

sushi will b back soon.

i dun wan to quit bt den i nid to force myself to try to move on.

a happy new life ahead waitin for mi. =)

takin 3days off. considering takin 1wk off. will kenny kill mi? lolx. bt i dun wan off so many days. ltr nobody pei mi. i dun wan stay @ hm.

oh oh. i muz rmb to ask san, eve n kel abt it. mon i m goin shoppin! wan go w mi? lolx.

i m sick of myself being sad.

i regretted myself being so brave. to face it. i shld haf hide. shld haf run away. shld haf nt go. n all i get is. da present mi now.

heard faiz's story. dat gal is such a bitch.

mayb edwin is rite, i m mad. my brain is full of weird thots now.

oh btw, my hp will b on hols soon. lolx.

i wan to rest. i wan to move on. y m i stuck agn? bloody hell. shld i change job for dat? i dun wan to. bt den. it will b my last resort. cuttin connections. damn it.

sushi is weak aftall.

oh.. thanks mel n bea to cum n visit mi @ workplace.. will miss u all aft u all end work sia.. i alwaes happy to c pple cum find mi! =) make my day! thanks!

Friday, March 30, 2007
down.
downer.
downest.

changed my blog so to start anew.. bt den.. it's lk tings juz pop up @ da wrong time alwaes... since dat time wen my life bcum so screwed up... my life bcums a rollercoaster which enjoys more down dan up...

i wan my entries to b as happy as my blogskin.. so orange! so happy.. bt den... diz time i juz cant help bt to post a sad one.. sry pple... i m sad agn~ lolx..

accidentally injured myself. so painful! i nid painkillers.

my weight now is 45 kg.. lolx.. i finally make it.. bt den i decided to lose 2 more kg bfore i stop dietin... bt den i m nt dietin in da first place! lolx... i dun wan to gain weight agn.

我一定要幸福。
你也一定要幸福。
她也一定要幸福。
他也一定要幸福。

i dun wan to b bad mood wen i m workin agn. ytd was kinda bad. bt den i m glad w my colleagues hu tell mi stuffs. unlk some hu din wen dey noe. -.- thanks! =)

i wan to eat pepper steak! wait till i get my pay! lolx... =)

i nid to start plannin my diz mnth expenses. sigh.

i nid a hug. (sushi). =)

tata pple. gettin hungry liaox. go eat den go work le.

sarah is workin 2day! =)

my body condition is droppin w my weight. damn it.

Thursday, March 29, 2007
i m da last idiot to noe?

bad bad bad bad bad mood.
lolx. nt really.
bt yarhx.

i din get to eat my pepper steak! coz test run dun haf.. i thot haf! sobs. bt i found sth i love. salmon!!!!! first time eatin salmon. lolx..

dat's a lot i wan to blog.
bt den.

tata pple.

mayb i nid to change my life.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007
i still cannt decide wat to study.. maritime sounds gd.. bt den da future is so unclear... n studyin dat means i hafta gif up my dream of studyin business... sorta.. summore it's a degree in science... which means if i ended up wan b tcher i can only teach pri sch.. -.- i wan teach sec sch.. sobs... chem is given up too... i will so b missin chem... n my maths... maths will nv die off lahx.. bt i cannt live doin maths only coz i din do fmaths den i throw into da world of econs.. lolx... mayb i will b applyin science for nus... apply both den c how...

n i realised.... few mnths time i will b back studyin agn.. sigh... diz is da first time i break for so long... so long till i dun wan to go back study.. to feel da stress.. so live up to my own expectations.. my family expectations.. nid to bcum da nerdy mi.. i guess i m nerdy in da first place.. .faiz said i haf a nerd face.. lolx... nid to go back to study.. to learn.. to do hw.. diz time i will try my best to revise! lolx...

i m such a single-minded person.. cannt multitask.. bt sometimes.. i jux lk myself being lk dat... =)

love,
sushi.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007
if kel ever read my blog.. i m so goin to kana scolded by her for all da vulgarities i used...

anw... i guess by now everyone noes my stupid com shut down for no reason.. it juz lk to shut down... so i m so irritated now dat i m goin to save $$ to buy a new laptop... bt den it will take a long long time bfore i can get it coz i spend a lot of money... sian...

so reasons to save increased.. i nid to buy laptop.. a digi cam... a watch... oversea trip... i wondered if my mama let mi go oversea anot.. nt coz she afraid bt den coz da money.. lolx.. bt den it's my money bt den.. yada yada.. i dunno.. c how lahx..

one gd ting abt com shut down is dat i get to rest my eyes.. walk here walk dere.. juz now walked dunno how many rounds coz i m so vexed abt uni stuffs.. i m da only one left tinkin? sobs... i m such an indecisive person wen cum to diz kinda tings.. damn it. bt den i tok to my mama abt it.. hmmm.. guess i m back to maritime.. lolx... bt i wanna apply for nus oso bt den my mama scold mi nt to coz u actually caused sb nt to get a place.. haix.. i dunno leix.. i juz wanna cfm dat wat i wan is maritime.. sian.. bt den it means no more nice clothes to wear in da future coz i wil lb runnin @ da port? i dunno.. bt i wan wear nice clothes! okiex.. mayb i m bo liao nt wantin maritime coz of it.. bt den.. it matters lorx...

oh.. btw i stayed @ hm coz i m too lazy to get out of da bed juz now.. lolx... so long since i slacked @ hm.. =)

after i get my pay.. i m so goin to call everyone out...

found usin search fr http://www.yahoo.com

i m catchin it in da nite!!! wanted to borrow money fr my da jie.. ended up borrowin money fr my dad.. sigh.. fr someone hu din work.. keke... so cumin pay nid to pay back my dad.. pay back myself... den pay hp bill.. reserve some for tptn... etc... muz make a list liaox.. i wont b short of money diz month! i hope so.. i nid to do some plannin sia... sian...

bt den.. look on da gd side! i get to spend wen i get my pay day!!! i guess i hafta skip da watch.. bt den.. i buyin clothes n stuffs~~~ lalala. shoppin!!!! i wan my pay day n my off day! lolx... =)

anybody wanna catch number 23 w mi?

i just cant live w/o movies. =P

oh oh.. i tried da bagle [izzit how it is spelled?] @ mac in da mornin w my sisters n mama juz now.. =) nice~ bt den.. y is dere onions agn? lolx.. ytd da soup eat a lot alr now still mzu eat.. i guess soon u will c mi eatin vege as if i alwaes eat... lolx... bt den.. i took da tomato oiut.. juz cant tahan it.. lolx.. so squashy...

tata pple~ i gues i will b stayin @ hm n rot.. hmmm.. tidy my rm n stuffs.. my rm is foreva messy.. c no pt tidyin up.. lolx... c how lahx...

m i easily influenced?

2day had lunch w mum n dad... had spicy prawn mee? lolx.. in short terms mee goreng @ banquet! =) nice food! den aft dat went to work.. kinda sian coz i start work @ 3! borin time.. den kana attacked by water gun by ridzuan.. spray till i so pek chek sia.. den aft dat go play onion! ended up i tear.. coz was testin to c if i will tear anot.. lolx... ended up a bit lahx.. lolx... den did my closin pretty fast coz no pple mahx... lolx..

sad sad! din take pic of my last corn soup! sobs.. my corn soup corn soup corn soup..

den kana attacked by ed w da water gun. stupid water gun. lolx.. i will revenge! lolx...

tmr dunno will b goin out anot.. coz kel dun feel lk goin out... n i haven tell eve n san abt it so i uges si m goin to get scolded n hated.. bt den.. i m leavin in da evenin coz i m watchin teenage mutant ninja turtles! da name of da movie so long lahx.. so hard to read oso.. lolx.. so mayb stayin @ hm to read my story bk? or go kel hse.. c how..

free meal on wed!!! cant wait for da free food! pepper steak!!!! =)

i may b afraid bt den i will b brave. as always.

oh.. i bloody hell cannt decide wat to apply...
business or maritime?

love,
sushi.

Monday, March 26, 2007
back to blogger.
=)

gtg.

haf lunch n go work.